Hyper-Altaria's Personal blog


Elevators freak me out

When someone vents to you,


and you’re left speechless. You want to be able to say something to make them feel better, but you can’t think of anything. All you can do is try to respond with something but then it seems like you don’t care. It sucks when someone is pouring their heart out to you, and you can’t do anything to fix it.

I have come to realization that I was right the first time in identifying as Agender/Gender Neutral and trying to identify as male was too far. I guess I was doing something I though I needed to do to get me to feel normal.

I do want to look masculine yes, and I want to feel like a man, but I also enjoy being a female, having the body of a female that is. Im sorry if anyone feels like I was leading them on, and I’m not. I am just very confused about this topic and after trying to be male for the past couple months, it’s just not what I wanted.

If you could go back to using gender neutral pronouns and such that would be alright, as well as you can call me Matt or Nancy and I won’t squirm. They’re both me. I just prefer Matt still. Fits me better.


I just want to lie in bed and not participate in life